Bottled Destruction

My life has turned off,
I’ve fallen so low
The pain that exceeds me,
is bottled below
So deep in my chest,
that my body will ache,
and shatter among me,
as my bones start to break

I’ve fallen to pieces,
my sobs never cease
The memories are forceful,
and hard to release

Too much destruction,
we've stumbled and crashed
Bleeding before you,
is my body you smashed

Blurry

Myself I am, I see so clear,
reflection of myself in a mirror
Same old image, all too plain,
feeling as if I'm going insane

Myself is waiting, I feel so weak,
Slowly heading towards the love I seek

Nothing left but shattered glass,
broken by my steady grasp
The pieces rose up from the floor,
A portal shown off like a door

In the mirror myself did go
Still like a painting, the river below
Quiet so loud it's piercing my ears,
the desire inside has brought me to tears

Searching for someone, I stare at the sun
Pointless I see this trip has become
I hear something out there, moving about
A figure in the distance, I can’t quite make out

Though vision is blurry, I don’t need to see,
I feel that he’s out there, waiting for me


Friday, June 12, 2009
- Dedicated to Tishawn.

Silent Tears

Betrayals light is upon me,
Why wont you set it free?
My tears will drown it out of you,
But you shed no tears for me

This deceit is worse than most,
One that cuts me deep
I am here and I am listening,
yet I'm silenced as you speak

The words you say turn into lies,
I can see there's much to teach
I try to squeeze it out of you,
But the truth is out of reach

This is what I get for believing
How did you get so cold?
How long have you been lying?
What stories have been untold?

If I am to be open,
then you must be open too
Don't break me into pieces,
I gave my heart to you

Wednesday, June 24, 2009


-- must have written this when I was with brad... I dont remember this one, but i found it and i liked it! :)

Dying Within

Left me alone,
the same as before
The memories we made,
you chose to ignore

Broken to pieces,
I’m hurting again
Feeling this way,
I’m dying within

Time heals most,
yet its going too slow
Not sure now,
which way i should go

Covered in sadness,
but I’ll keep it inside
To remind myself how,
it felt when u lied

--Thursday, June 25, 2009

“His Heavenly Heart”

I see who you are
when you look in my eyes,
your color is vibrant
in the darkest of skies

A heart so pure,
it shines in the light
In the heat of the day,
till it turns into night

A soul that’s complete,
so peaceful and still
like a vacant green meadow
or a wide grassy hill

Eyes that weaken
my body and soul,
and fill me with emotions
I cant quite control

Everything about him,
I keep inside
so the beauty within him,
he can not confide


- Dedicated To: John L.

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Nothing But Pain

You tell me to trust you,
but I'm frightened inside
When I tell you my feelings,
you brush me aside

Behind this confusion,
I'm timid and down
Hoping that our future
will still be around

Each days a mystery,
am i happy or sad?
Can you ever forgive me?
Are you gonna stay mad?

I love you forever
I hope that explains
without your love,
there is nothing but pain

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Desert Of Hunger

Beating Of Hearts,
The Sun On The Sand
Warming Each Person,
As They Lend Out Their Hand

Free As The Wind,
As It Blows Dust Away
Left Fooled In The Desert,
Forever To Stay

Each Day Means Nothing,
You Gaze At The Sun
The Beauty Between Us,
Will Soon Be Undone

The Sun Is But Half,
You Will Never Be Whole
Warming Your Flesh,
As It Sucks Up Your Soul